I’m so excited to introduce my new friend Corrie to you all! She’s a DJ on my favorite radio station, and I’ve listened to her for several years. Last year, I would listen to her speak in the afternoons as I came home from cosmetology school, and it encouraged me to keep going. She was also a cosmetology student who wanted to keep her faith first in the life of glitter, glam, and make-your-own-way. A couple months ago, she shared on the radio that she wished for a friend who understood what she was going through, and I found her on social media and reached out to her. After chatting for a couple weeks, we met up in person and really enjoyed each other’s company (yes, if you’re studying the pictures, it was at a Waffle House). I asked her to guest blog today so that I could share her with you all; she radiates the joy of the Lord and wisdom, and is really a treasure.
Here’s what she has to say:
I thought I would be loved by now.
I thought I would be loved by now… that thought crossed my mind recently. I always had the American dream in my head… you know the one where everything just falls into place (the husband, the house, the kids, etc…). I didn’t think I’d have to go to all of my childhood friends weddings alone. I didn’t think I’d take myself out to eat and feel incredibly awkward telling the host I’d like a table for one. I never could have imagined going to church and sitting with a chair in between myself and the family next to me. I could go on and on about how life is not how I imagined it would be. At 23, I feel as though all of that should have happened by now. I know once you read my age you started laughing, probably saying what everyone else says: “You’ve got time” or “You’re still young” or my favorite, “You’re a spring chicken”. I will say that singleness has helped me embrace Jesus in ways that maybe I would’ve neglected if I were already married. Here’s what I’ve learned: Jesus is the sweetest man I’ve ever met. In Hosea 2:19-20 (HCSB) it says,
“I will take you to be My wife forever. I will take you to be My wife in righteousness, justice, love, and compassion. I will take you to be My wife in faithfulness, and you will know Yahweh.”
Oh that we would hear Jesus speaking these vows to us today. Knowing who you are as The Bride of Christ will minister to your heart eternally. He’s a love that is constant. His love is forever. Once I realized that salvation is giving me the opportunity to say those vows right back to Him, it allowed my relationship with Him to go so much deeper. I will take you to be my husband forever. I will take you to be my husband in righteousness, justice, love, and compassion. I will take you to be my husband in faithfulness, and I will know Yahweh. I found myself writing that down and eventually got it tattooed on my body. To know Jesus as a husband is such a privilege. He calls us to be His bride, which requires a daily relationship with Him. My daily relationship with Him allows me to know that I am loved, loved more than I realize. I love the fact that once we’re in this relationship with Jesus we get to help lead other people into the same growing relationship. He wants to use your love story with Him to lead every person you talk to into the same kind of relationship. Discover who He says that you are. Live from a place of knowing that you’re loved–eternally loved. Every day ask Him to show you a person that needs His love. I know that might be out of your comfort zone, but sharing His love is such a beautiful gift. There are so many people that don’t feel loved–so many people that don’t know His love–so many people that need to experience His love. His love changes the way that we live. He allows us to be so filled with His love that it overflows. We never have to feel unloved again. You are loved with an everlasting love. Jeremiah 31:3 confirms this. His love will hold you and carry you. His love is active. Let it activate in your life. Let Him love you, sweet friend. His love will minister to every hurt and every wound. Psalm 147:3-5 in The Passion Translation (TPT) reads,
“He heals the wounds of every shattered heart. He sets his stars in place, calling them all by their names. How great is our God! There’s absolutely nothing His power cannot accomplish, and He has infinite understanding of everything.”
You might feel like no one understands, but I love the insight that those verses give. He has infinite understanding. He knows your every thought. He knows your heart like no other. He really does satisfy! There’s song that says, “It’s so much better Your way”; I love that statement. It’s so much better His way. You’re never alone! Benji Nolot said,
“Our wounds are deep, but they’re not incurable. Brokenness is not the end of the story. Wholeness is the end of the story.”